USED to BE :(

how sad... OMG ! i'm so sad . he makes me like a "tunggul kayu" right now . i think that i'm so alone rite now . without you , i feel weird . ! heyy , listen : HUN loves you tightly DEAR !

it was all used to be . the story began here . one lovely evening in school , he called my name . my FULL name ( nur ain syuhada ) . feel like melting in the hottest sunshine . i was on my way back to hostel . then , in a sudden he called me because he saw me from canteen . firstly , i thought that he was calling other people . but , NO ! it was my name that he shouted for 3 times . i'm so excited but pretending that i'm not . i stopped at the "susur gajah" that was full of manila card . i turned around and saw him smiling at me . i wondered why ? why must he called my name and ran after me on that day ? just walked together all the way . and , i don't know why i gave him a lollypop . it's just a lollypop rite ? but , he smiles as sweet as cotton candy while receiving it . my heart on that time was like want to jump out of my body . HAHHA ! so~ in LOVE .

and the conversation began :

HUN : knape pggil aku ? *pelik jea

DEAR : saje je .

at this moment i gave him the lollypop .

HUN : kau ta sehat ker ? demam ea ?

DEAR : emm , tadelah . cket jea . ehh , aku balik esok taw .

HUN : yeke ? bkn mlm hari nie ker ?

DEAR : eyh , mane kau twu nie ?
HUN : :) aku twu laa..

DEAR : aah , betol laa uw . ehh , td dyorang bincang pasal ape ?

HUN : (blablabla...) ohh , anyway , knape kau kene balik ?

DEAR : sbb disuruh .

HUN : :) pape jela kau nie .

people started staring at us . and my steps went faster . he chased after me .

DEAR : knape kau asyek tnye knape aku balik je ? klau aku balik , kau rindu aku ker ?

HUN : (turned back , looked at his face and... ) aah ! ;D

DEAR : ahhh~ (hugged one of the pole with happy + melty + cutie face)

omg , again my heart was stomping even faster . only can smiled sincerely to him and pretend to be cool . 

HUN : emm , knape nie ?

DEAR : tade pape , hehe .

HUN : oke .

DEAR : ehh , nty msg taw .

HUN : mcm mne nk msg ? aku kan kat skola 

DEAR : iyela , xpe , aku tunggu kau .

HUN : betol nie kau nk tggu ?

DEAR : betol... :)

HUN : oke !

DEAR : da solat ke belom nie ?

HUN : belom lg lah . tula , da lmbat da nie .

DEAR : ouh , aku tggu kau taw . dah , pegi mndilah . bushuk ! 

HUN : emm , iyela , org nk mndi la nie .
DEAR : bubye !

HUN : byebye !

huh~ feel like the luckiest girl in the world . i ran happily , screamed loudly , jumped highly on that day . how can i tell you ? i just can't believe that it's all happened to me in a moment . thanks god . a day without him means nothing to me . i was too excited to go back home . luckily it was friday . packed all my things with happy face . can't wait to see what'll happen next . went to seremban . my phone , oh shit , the prepaid has expired . wait until 5 . then , i top up my phone . 3 messages sent by him . asking me where have i been . sorry dear , i'm hear but my phone was out of credit . he told me that he has waited for me for almost 27 hours . how long is that ? i can't believe it . we text and he started to ask me some weird questions . suddenly , i confessed to him that i like him . and , ya , he liked me first , and waited for me for 3 months . just me , didn't realize that . yeah ! he promise to take care of me , my feeling with the best as he could . unofficially , i've accept him as my someone special . he was so excited and called me CYG . i told him that i'm not so interested with that "cyg" . so , we decided to use "kau & aku" . first time in my life . ohh , how much i miss that moment ! he was so~ sweet like sugar . we text until night . sorry , midnight . then he said he wanted to give me a call . sure baby . i'm glad . when i heard his voice , emmm , i was speechless . don't know what to say . sorry babe . i was shy . i know you too felt like me . don't you even lie to me dear . continue until next day . he asked me to WEBBIE with him . for sure i did that . stared each other without saying any words . how sweet... he's so cute man ! i'm not lying . and the way he copied on what i did that moment made me smile to him . seriously , i love the way he was . i was holding and hugging my heart-shape pillow . then , he took his pillow too and did the same thing . so , naughty . but , i didn't mind at all . i love him so much . 

wanna know , he asked me to baked a cake for him . and , i did it . just because of him . school holidays were over . and i met him at school . this story gonna be more interesting . he suddenly , had a pick-a-boo with me at the window in my class . i was so shocked . how dare you did that to me dear . act , he wanted the cake . so , i gave a tupperware of cake to him . some of my friends saw that . but , me , as usual pretending like nothing happen . just be like a normal person . :) hmmm . passed by my class and with his serious face , he called me to go outside from the back door . i just don't know what he wanted from me . just followed him to the outside .

HUN : kenape pggil org nie ?

DEAR : xde pape...

HUN : laa , baek x payah . org nk masuk la

DEAR : ehh , sabar laa

HUN : aku takot org nmpak lah . nty dyorang pker bukan bukan pulak

DEAR : ala , mne ade org la . kejap laa..

HUN : oke... nape nie ?

DEAR : I LOVE YOU !

HUN : ahhh~~~

DEAR : takkan tu je ?

HUN : i love you too... :)

with my blushing face , went into the class and again pretending that i'm not doing anything with him . OMG ~ what will you feel if you were at my place . like heaven right ? but now , look , what is happening to me ? i'm alone . an awkward lonely girl . where is my dear ? i don't even know . when i asked him , why does he changed ? he won't answer me . is that my fault . dear , i beg you . please treat me like you did 2 months before . i miss the old you dear . miss it so much . please... for me , at least once . how lucky me if you can read this . i want you coz i miss you coz i love you . and i need you by side now . i' alone . all day long , i'm waiting for you dear . never forget you . you will always gonna be my BOO ! forever & ever . i love you so much . please understand me .